Day 16

Well today has been kind of a blur. I realized yesterday that in the past, in my life anyway, failure breeds failure. Not this time, instead of giving up on my goal to quit smoking I will rewrite my methods of quitting, set goals that I can achieve, and continue working on getting this nasty ass habit out of my life. Now on going out of town for work; It looks like that opportunity has fallen through. I know my daughter and a few other people thought it was a bad idea and even though I have taken everybody's opinion very seriously, I believe going would've been the right thing for me to do. You see this blog is more to me than something to do, it is my support group, kinda like going to AA or NA, but I don't have to drive to a meeting, and I don't have to wait for a meeting to start.

I got my own laptop today, and I am very happy about it. Now I don't have to borrow anybody's computer. You see, I feel that no matter where I go, I can take all of you with me, even my daughter, life goes on whether I'm hiding behind her or not. Knowing I have a support group anywhere I go twenty four hours a day is definitely a breath of fresh air, that's what this is all about, getting a life. I have never felt more comfortable talking about my thoughts and feelings as I have the last sixteen days and the more I write and express myself, and read the comments from other people, the more I learn about life and myself. This is absolutely the best journey I have ever been on, a better life is already here and I know it's only gonna get better. I cannot thank all of you enough for taking the time to get to know me. Well it is very late as I've been trying to get my laptop set up. Idiots are as idiots do, not me. I look forward to seeing you tomorrow,

Jim