Day41, well it is six thirty in the morning and I believe it will be another great day, Steve I am so happy for your family and you, it will not be easy, as a matter of fact it will get harder but even the hard times are a pleasure when you start making the changes in your life that make you a role model for the people around you, that is definitely one of the main ingredients of stayen clean.
Cynthia, my heart aches for you but my faith in you has not waivered, in fact is has grown stronger, it takes a lot of courage to make a mistake and not run and hide, you owned your feelings and did not leave me wondering, I would much rather know what is going on in your life, good or bad than not hear from you and have to wonder if you are ok, I will continue to be here for you, I have more than enough love in my heart to share with you and that is something I will continue to do, I also know that as an addict it is hard to trust others but I will not stop trying to gain your trust, I do not care what race you are, how tall or short, how big or small, I am here for you, you have my number, if you call I will stand right beside you to help you get started, there are a lot more people than just me that care about you, call me, your life will change.
Well today is Tuesday and I have already gone to the gym, I feel like I own the place now, no worries. Today I would like to talk about what I see in the future for this blog, I believe that my blog alone can only take a small bite out of what seems to be a hole bushel of apples, and what works for me definitely won't work for everyone. Steve, I believe if you are truly serious about staying clean I think it is time we hear from you, I would like to see my blog turn into two blogs with different opinions as to reach more people, and those two blogs to turn into four, and so on and so on. You have the chance to set the example for hundreds of people that have suffered just as you have for years, it is a big responsibility, but your blog will hold you accountable and you will find in no time that you no longer have to hide from yourself, the world will start looking to you for answers and you will find that being on this stage forces you to do what's right. The joy that you will feel is so overwhelming drugs and alcohol just wont be a part of your life, this blog and taking the steps to set the example have saved my life and I hope to return the favor as many times as I can, if you start your own blog I will be your number one follower, its time to take a stand. James
Helping others is one of the best ways to overcome addiction, depression and anything else that ails you. It's when we focus too much attention on ourselves that we get into trouble. It's not that we shouldn't care about ourselves. We should. In fact, it's important that we do, but when we help others, we can't help but feel better about ourselves. That's how God wired us. Sin (addiction, if you will) short circuits that wiring and causes us to be extremely selfish. Grace (God's love for us in spite of what we deserve - sometimes manifested by people who love us for no apparent reason) can, if we'll let it, re-establish in us the desire to be a blessing to others. James, Cynthia, Steve, and anyone else who's reading this, you are loved with an everlasting love, and nothing you can do will ever change that. God sometimes gets a bad rap because people misunderstand His justice which is always tempered with mercy. Jesus already paid the penalty for your sins so you don't have to. Unless you're bound and determined to reject His love, He will save you, not only from the penalty of your sins/addictions, but from sin itself. There is always hope. Never give up!
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James, I cannot tell you how much I appreciate all that you have said, it has been a good day, I worked outside alot and worked out alot of frustration and anxiety. My brother-in-law, came by last night unexpectedly and prayed with me, he is also a miracle and an inspiration to me immensly, then today it was my mother-in-laws, Birthday, and I called and wished her a happy birthday, she was also very excited to hear from me. Best of all, my wife and I communicated a little today, more by text, but we did talk for a few minutes and I told her I loved her, she is a warrior. Needless to say, it's been a very long day and going to be an early morning. Again thank you, the more people praying or believing in all of us, does add alot of pressure, but in the end, can be very gratifying and rewarding. Then like you said we can share our stories with others that may be in similar situations. God Bless You Brother, Have a Great Day tomorrow.
ReplyDeletejames, I have been following your blog and can see that it is helping you when you help other people...but what about your life. What happened with your boss and driving. How did you resolve the "friends" issue. It must be lonely when friends you used to hang out with are doing things that you can't. Did you try AA? Not so much for their program...because this blog seems to work for you but for some hanging out time with people who have experience some of the things that you have. It seems that reading about your feelings is helping...but isn't this also about what you are doing? How did your day with your son go..good...bad?
ReplyDeleteJim, you are really starting to make a positive impact and impression on others, that is absolutely amazing!!! To Cynthia and Steve... stay strong and remember you have alot of people praying for you both!! If you fall, get back up, no one is here to pass judgement, only to offer love and support!!! Love, Paula
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