Day78 it seems like my life is right where its supposed to be, I am thinking clear and living by much higher standards than I ever knew of before, I am at the start of a very loving and caring relationship, and I am learning new comforts and joys I never new existed. It seems impossible for life to get any better than this but each day I wake up it seems to. I am absolutely over whelmed at how wonderful life can actually be, and for some reason I just know tomorrow morning the sun will shine even brighter for me. It seems though I still want more, its not that im not satisfied, because I am, but I feel like I have more to offer, I just don't know what it is yet, some how I feel ive got to share this happiness that is my life with those who need it, I want to fill the worlds heart with the love that I feel right now, and let me tell you it feels good. So how can I spread this warmth to all that is cold, I just don't know and it troubles me, and there doesn't seem to be much that troubles me lately. I feel as though I could touch the stars without even trying, but can do nothing about the sorrow around me, it is strange, like I have a sixth since, I see the smiles on the faces of people around me but do not feel there happiness, only the pain that they hide behind their smiles, at times I feel guilty because I am at such peace, I wonder at times if others feel like I do, if they to watch total strangers and let there minds sink into the lives of others, feel there pain and hurt with them silently, or am I just different than most. I will continue to look for more ways to bring true smiles to anyone I come in contact with, whether it be through my writings or at the local convenience store, I know there's more I can do, James
Jimmy, you need to somehow give back, volunteer, at the local shelter on holidays.. as I have said before....go to Church, find out if God does have a higher purpose for you. WORK OUT.
ReplyDeleteStart running or hiking.......look at how beautiful nature is and write about it.....You are sort of in a state of grace right now and generally it is hard to continue to acheive such heights....so you have work on being the best you can and being thankful for the joy that is yours..........love you.........Aunt P.
Jim, you sound just like a person who's found their first love. Colors are brighter, flowers smell sweeter, birds sing better than they ever have, that sort of thing. I think this girl is getting to you! {;o)
ReplyDeleteI know I'm repeating myself, but I truly am happy for you that you've found a loving, caring person to build a relationship with. Also, your Aunt P. has some great advice. Now that you're clean & sober you can do so many good things with your free time. One thing you can do to the people around you wherever you go, is to smile and be friendly......even to someone who is waiting on you that isn't being so nice. Years ago there was a young grocery clerk at this store who was kind of unfriendly, but I just kept smiling at her and asking her how she was, and finally one time she broke down & cried and said that it broke her heart to have to leave her little baby with someone while she went to work. So, Jim, just share your happiness with others by smiling and being friendly to them. You never know what a difference you can make in their day just by being you.
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