Day64i feel terrible, I don't know where this sickness came from, I just woke up with it yesterday and it seems to be worse today, only two days till Saturday, if it doesn't go away I will rest this weekend. I've got plenty to do and really don't have time to lay in bed all day, besides this job carries the responsibility of two other people, it is my job to not only work myself, but also make sure my other two guys are getting things done. I very much like these responsibilities and have no intentions of letting anyone down. John bought two more houses the other day and we've just about got one of them ready to rent, so that is my goal today, to finish the house and get more money coming in. tomorrow I will be back at the black apts working, ive got my new camera and im still trying to figure it out, but I should have it down by tomorrow.
It seems every job can have its ups and downs and im learning that if you want to move forward in life you need to find a positive side to the downs. When I first came out here and started this job it was john senior and me and two other guys that were here before I got here, john senior hasn't really seen me since his son and I were kids and me and his son did nothing but get in trouble together, so the only good he knew of me was what his son had told him, I believe he took a big chance bringing me out to work. We got along better than I ever thought we would and in no time he was handing a lot of the decision making over to me, I found myself in a very good place with a lot of responsibility, it seems the more responsibility john puts on me the more I want to do a better job for him. This is the important part that goes on in the work place across America everyday that I must learn from and see the positive side of it if I am to grow into the person I want to be. I thought I had everything rolling along pretty good and had a game plan of how I was going to do things, one thing I didn't plan on was john jr seeing things different, its like I jumped in the drivers seat and took off, but it wasn't my car. I must realize im here working for john senior, its his job not mine, he brought his son in to make sure things were going the way they needed to go, to me it felt like a demotion even though its not, I have to remember im here to work for them, if I have an opinion I should voice it but ultimately I am here to carry out their needs, that's what working for someone else is, right. I am very happy with my job and will continue to do the best job I know how, it just seems there's been so many changes so quick its hard to find exactly where I stand, but I can say this, I know im standing on solid ground due to my work ethics and experience. I also know that I will be loyal to the Hartman family as they have put me in a situation to succeed, and at this point in my life I know they have been good friends to me James.
Jimmy, I am sorry you feel crappy! Maybe you have just been working too hard and your body is telling you to slow down a bit. I know when I get screaming a long in high gear for a few months, with no breaks, my body usually tells me, quickly and efficiently to slow my ass down, or it will make me by getting sick. You're right, you have responsibilities and everyone can see you are doing an awesome job, but remember to take care of yourself too. Take a nap!
ReplyDeleteAs far as feeling like you got a demotion, I sympathize with you. I have had that feeling just in the past year. You feel like you are doing a great job, so great that you don't really need to have someone tell you how to do it. Then, the boss comes along and puts someone in between you and the boss...some sort of middle man. I know it feels kind of crappy but I have learned that as long as you keep doing the best you can do and they are still paying you the same, really, who cares at the end of the day? Believe me, I know it doesn't make it feel any better, but it will at least help to get you through the day. I have learned to let go of my control issues because sometimes I cannot control everything in my world (as much as I would love to). I understand your comment about not knowing where you stand. I feel like that a lot at my job but ultimately I have to just let it go...hard to do for my personality, but necessary. Have you tried asking junior and/or senior about where you stand and if your responsibilites have changed?
I hope you feel better soon and take some time for yourself! Love you sweetie, karin
Wow, first time I have the first comment. And today I finally got caught up on your entries. I'm sure the changes will go fine. It is normal for John to trust his son and put him first, it doesn't say anything about their trust and gratefulness towards you. I worked for a friend when right out of prison and I was and still am very grateful that he gave me work. However, this was the hardest job I ever had and I learned a lot about working for family and friends. Just keep the lines of communication open to make sure you are always on the same page. Everything will be fine.
ReplyDeleteOh, I wanted to send you some humor because life is funny too: http://www.theonion.com/video/police-seize-more-than-50-in-wire-from-nations-wea,18016/
Love you man. ~d
Jimmy, we all answer to someone.......work hard and learn.......really learn......and make this a positive experience. Learn to be a contractor..eventually in your lifetime, we will need men who know how to work and run jobs....it could be you. Ask questions and be honest when you have a problem or a concern. Learn.
ReplyDeleteI know you will do a good job.
I feel for you as I have a crappy summer cold and hate being sick...........sounds like you are much worse than me plus you are working.
Aunt P
Jim,
ReplyDeleteYou should not feel demoted or that you have the wrong game plan. You are doing an awesome job. You have exceeded my expectations in the way you handle the workers and your work ethic. I am only here for a short time and have complete trust that you will handle things while Im here and when Im gone. Im only here to share my knowledge and experiance. Keep up the good work.
I just love you more and more every day-I truly hope we get to meet some day face to face-cynthia
ReplyDeleteJim, I wish it were the weekend so that you could just rest and take care of yourself. It's hard to work when you're not feeling good. Maybe you could get off early tomorrow so you can rest. I hope this sickness goes away fast for you. I'm praying for your to get well. God Bless! Hugs, Nancy
ReplyDeletehey, chicken noodle soup, crackers and plain old asprin (not acidimiacin sp?....you know tylinol) and sleep. Works everytime. Hope you feel better soon. The only constant in the world is CHANGE.
ReplyDeleteI just wanted to tell you that i've been reading a few of your blogs, and i think that what you are doing is awesome and inspiring. My dad has had nothing but good things to say about you I can tell he's proud to call you a friend!
ReplyDelete- Skylar Hartman ( Johns oldest daughter)
Jim, sorry you're still feeling poorly. Do take advantage of the weekend and get plenty of rest. Drink lots of water, and put some fresh garlic in your soup. Garlic is a natural antibiotic, and will kill what ails you!
ReplyDeleteI can tell you get a kick out of being in charge, but it definitely pays to listen and be co-operative with the people you work for. Even people who are in charge need to learn submission to higher authority. It's not easy if you like to be the chief, but it's essential to learn if you want to be a good chief. After all, there will be people who work for you too who won't always agree with your decisions, and it will help if you can empathize with them.
You've got the right attitude! Keep it up!
Blessings,
Jack