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Stunned and amazed at what just happened, his mind was going a thousand miles an hour, as he pulled out of the bar, he could barely make a decision on which way to turn, where to go or what to do, he was at a complete loss. He turned towards Chattanooga and started down the road, his mind still in shock, these actions were the complete opposite of how james lived his life, what he believed in, he had always cared so much for others around him, even people he did not know. As he was driving down the road he tried to think about how he got here, what led him to such hatred and violence, why did his hope for life die, it always seemed to be so strong, unbreakable, he thinks about when he was a child, remembering when he was two or three playing with his evil knievil motorcycle and running down the hall of his house with a cape around his neck pretending he was batman, those seem to be the most joyest moments he can remember out of forty one years out of life. Never seeing the way of the world and the wickedness that lives withen it. Ignorance is bliss, your dreams at your fingertips, no roadblocks, no hurt, only love and caring all around you, a smile comes to his face as he soaks in the thoughts of childhood but that quickly changes when his mind goes to his next memory, four years old, and his parents are fighting violently, he hides in his room till it is over, when it is finally silent he comes out of his room to find broken glass all over the house, broken everything, lamps, pictures, dishes, it seemed anything that could be broken was smashed into a thousand pieces, mother or father nowhere to be found, unsure and scared, he runs back into his bedroom and hides under the bed till he falls asleep