Day 106, I believe I will skip on the past for a day, I have some things I need to talk about that pertain to me continuing on this path to freedom from my old way of living, I am feeling the pressures of life bearing down on me and im trying way to hard to stay ahead of them, over the last month I have learned some very important lessons, I was warned by several people not to get into a relationship to soon but I thought I was totally in control of my life and I could take anything on, man was I wrong, im finding that I have absolutely no idea how to share myself and my life with anyone, I thought I was so ready to share my life with someone but now im finding the sacrifices I have to make are putting me right back where I was last year, and im not willing to go back to that unhappiness I lived in for so long, I feel like im being selfish, but I also believe the toughest decisions are always the most important, I am at a time in my life where it is very important that I be selfish and think of myself, or I could end up flat on my face, moving forward in my life is what is important to me so it is me I must think about, I have gotten a lot of good advice and ive also made a lot of good decisions and I look forward to keeping both of these things coming in my life. I love my job and all the responsibility it carries, its a lot to think about and I believe I was made for this job, and I realize that the only things I want in my life this early on is the responsibility of my job and spending every day walking through my life learning how to be a better person, working everyday on comunication skills, work ethics, and just being an all around good roll model for others to look up to, as time goes by I will continue to focus on the positives life has to offer, even in the hardest of times, that is truly what defines who we are, James
It is not selfish in an adult world to take care of yourself. Again, find free classes to take in the evening.....perhaps learn about being a buddist....it is a philosophy, not a religion (doesn't have to give up Jesus)learn new ways of thinking to take the place of old ways.......learn to meditate, learn yoga....Jim the world is full of things to do and you now can explore them.........so be Jim the great explorer, a pathfinder to new ways to live and maybe learn to love in a health way. ooXX aunt P
ReplyDeleteI agree that you need to be selfish in order to take care of yourself. It will be nice when both of you are able to have your own living space so that you can think more clearly without worrying about offending each other. Your Aunt P is right that there are so many things you could do with your spare time....so many interests that you can pursue (I still think one of them should involve a writing class.) It's really great that you love your job! That's a huge plus, as so many people go through life working just to earn money and not being happy with the work they do. Blessings, Nancy
ReplyDeleteBE SELFISH!! Insist that others in your life follow their life's dreams too. Yes, it will be good when you both have your space again. Do not compromise on what you need in life, for yourself and in a relationship. You are in many relationships right now, some of them emotional, some personal, some professional... but you DO communicate every day and do a great job! Relationships are hard for all of us and someday the right intimate relationship will fall in your lap, until then relax and enjoy the ride! Love you! Karin
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