Day100 its been a really good day, I believe not making decisions when you don't know what to do has worked out for me, this is a valuable lesson for me, things have just seemed to work themselves out for the best, and I didn't have to make any hasty decisions, I believe from now on if I am undecided about something I will not let myself be rushed into making any decisions until I am good and ready to, I will make sure I have weighed all the options and looked at all the angles and thought about how my decisions will effect all parties involved, that way I can feel good about who I am and what I stand for in this world, I love who I am, and what I stand for, and I will continue to find ways to be a better person, to set an example on how others should treat the people that are in and around their lives, I will not let my past stray far from my mind in order to keep these positive changes in my life growing bigger and bigger.
I believe over the next few days im going to think start thinking about my life and how it got to this point, the parenting that I had, or lack of, I have a lot of dark buried secrets that I am ready to be rid of, Im just not sure if im ready to relive them, I will think about a life story, a public life story, I believe this is the next step to my growth, James
Why go back and relive the bad experiences that you have had. Why not start listing all the things that went right in your life. You have said that nothing went right, however, you worked, you have children, you are still alive. You managed to dig yourself out. Why do you want to go back and rehash...do you wish to assign "blame" for the decisions that you made. There are many things and people to blame for all the ills in the world..blaming solves nothing and sounds like excuses, like some of the babble that you heard in all the rehab that you went through that didn't work. Aren't you past that, working on tomorrow not yesterday. Nothing in the past can be changed. Perhaps you think that you can learn from the past...but what exactly are you trying to learn? You are 100 days into the future keep moving forward. This comment is meant in a purely positive way, when you have a sore that has formed a scab...if you keep picking at it it never gets well.
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